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Saturday, June 19, 2010

A month away!

Wow, it is truly amazing how quickly a month can go by. Lots of things have happened over the past month, but we are all wonderful! Lots to catch up on - starting with Kate's 3rd birthday post (April 25 - yes I am so behind!!). We are loving life and I like to say I am living it - this means sometimes I get behind on preserving our memories. I have decided my kids will remember the moments I share with them and that is what creates and molds the beautiful young girls I have been blessed with. Yes, they will treasure the moments I capture on paper when they are older, but I would not trade my childhood memories for a hard copy anyday. Trying to live in the moment - not in the past or the future. God has given us now!! Oh, how I've changed over the year! This does not mean I do not have good intentions of capturing and recording as many moments as I can!!!

Catch up posts coming soon! Love to all!

Monday, May 17, 2010

All in a day's work

We are smooth sailing these days, but I cannot keep up with the blog like I want - story of my life I guess. I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do in my spare time (ha!) and currently I am working on digital scrapbooking. I have done a very lousy job with traditional scrapbooking since the girls came along - finally something to scrapbook and just do not seem to enjoy it as much nor have the time, but I really like the digital stuff. With all that being said, probably won't be updating the blog as much - not too different from the past year I guess, but writing it down for myself more than anything so I don't have to feel guilty - yes, I feel guilt over not updating my blog - HILLARIOUSLY SILLY!! I am going to make a goal of updating weekly just for family and friends to keep in touch with us and I know I have some readers that enjoy reading about the crazy's called the Robertson's!

Now on to the good stuff!

ALL IN A DAY'S WORK:

1. Cleaning up more diarrhea - cloth diapers, paper diapers, bathroom rug - disgusting!!!- than I ever dreamed possible when I first became a mom - poor Addison was sick today - hoping for a healthy girl tomorrow!

2. Waking my sleeping husband who is working nights currently to help retrieve a cheerio that was misplaced in a certain someone's nostril (Addison) - I tried but it was getting farther in not coming out! Thank goodness for my pediatrician husband who came to the rescue!

3. Placing Kate's prized Mother's Day Out crafts and coloring sheets on top of the car to be forgotten about - that is until I walked in the door at home and asked her what craft they did today - oops! I quickly changed the subject.

4. Rearranging my "pantry" - a linen closet- to find a cake mix I knew I put in there somewhere but just could not find - I FOUND IT! Sorry Chris cake will be done tomorrow!

5. Reading, Singing and Rocking my sweet Addison as she cuddles up next to me - I wonder how long this will last - I hope for a long, long, long time!

6. Reading and discussing books and bible stories with Kate and singing her "special" songs before bed. Laying next to her while she drifts off to sleep thinking about how fast time has gone.

7. Remembering how blessed I am and so thankful Chris is on vacation next week - yes, I am counting the days!! One more month and the dreaded intern year is over - time truly does fly when life is crazy and full of fun!



Sunday, May 9, 2010

Kate and Addison


Kate, you came into my life over three years ago. You officially gave me the title "mommy". You changed me from the moment I laid eyes on you. Kate you have taught me how to love more than I ever thought possible, not to sweat the small stuff and that laughing feels so much better than crying. Over the past three years as your mommy I have come a long way. Concerns of napping and ounces in have turned to concerns of learning numbers and letters. You bring so much color and enthusiasm to our family. You crack me up with your newest sayings and discussions with inanimate objects. You can tell quite the story and almost make a believer out of me. God has great things in store for you. I never dreamed the baby I held in my arms on April 25, 2007, would be an independent, free spirited, fun-loving little girl like you. I love you!

Addison, from the time I carried you life was full of questions. From extreme morning sickness to where I would deliever you to where would I bring you home. You rocked our world early on and continue to do so. You screamed on the way out and screamed for the first 3 months of your life - poor baby in so much pain and I did not even know. Addison you changed me as a mother. You taught me to stop and smell the roses. You gave me the opportunity to really embrace motherhood and seize the opportunities - they can go so fast. God sent you to me and I am so thankful that you changed me. I love rocking you each night as you cuddle up next to me. You are quite the little firecracker and stand your own. You are just as independent as your sister and I have a feeling parenting Kate first was to prepare us for you. You are so loved!

To my sweet girls. Motherhood is more than I ever dreamed it would be. I would be lost without you! Always remember you are the daughters of the greatest King!

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalms 37:4

Monday, April 19, 2010

love my girls


Sunday, April 18, 2010

Easter photo shoot

Here's to all the women who attempted to take a "family" picture on Easter Sunday by themselves! As you can see we gave it a shot and did the best we could - love it! What memories. Never dreamed I would EVER take my girls to church on Easter Sunday (or church for that matter - cannot remember the last time Chris was able to attend with us - not by his choice I can assure you!!!) by myself, but I did and was privileged to do so. The journey of residency has taken our family to places I never thought possible, but how we've grown and changed and how blessed I am. Aren't they beautiful!








Friday, April 16, 2010

okay folks

I feel like all of my posts lately revolve around the same thing - where has time gone....

Chris was off on Thursday so I took the girls to MDO - I know bad of me, but I needed the break and even when Chris is home there is not much of a break for mommy!! He still saw them far more than a normal day! Anyway, we tackeled the unthinkable - 5 boxes of paper that has been accumulating since we moved. Papers from when we sold our house, bills, Addison's birth certificate information and oh yes the social security card information.

While on that note - do you realize we, the Robertson's, organized (in a past life) Sara were forced to file an extension on our taxes because we did not have a SSN for Addison - how embarassing she is nearly 10 months old.

With all this being said - it is so refreshing to have uncovered the mess. It is finished we are finally settled and officially unpacked.

I have so many pics and stories to share, but our silly computer will not upload them. Trying to work out the issues and hopefully we'll be up and running soon.

I miss blogging about the girls and our life more regularly, but man it is crazy around here. Everyone says intern year is the hardest - they better not be lying! We are almost there - so close I can taste it.

Here's to finishing whatever it is that drives you crazy. All my boxes are gone, so now it's the computer/pic problem for me!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Stomach bug from... and a few other tidbits

The Robertson's have been under the weather to say the least this week. Kate woke up vomitting on Sunday night and poor thing she is still having diarrhea - acts like she is feeling better, but still not eating. Chris and I both had a milder version - thank goodness but it has been a long week!

On a lighter note - I am really beginning to like Little Rock. When we moved out here (almost a year ago) everyone said it would take a year to really get used to a new town - well, I can verify that. I honestly hated it at first and felt so alone, but I have made friends, gotten involved with bible study and church activities and honestly Little Rock finally feels like home!!

I am finally getting sleep - two weeks ago on a Sunday evening I had had it (those of you who facebook might recall a status update that was somewhat um a downer!!) Anyway, I finally let Addison cry it out and it has paid off. She cried 45 minutes the first night and about 20 minutes the next few (not many) and before I knew it the girl was laying down on her own for naps and bed time and SLEEPING all night (12 hours) most nights - not always!!! I am here to tell you, sleep is precious. I had no idea how exhausted I was from getting up every 2-3 hours for 9 months! So, some of you are thinking my success is unfair - I agree - at 9 months most kids probably would have fought harder. I guess Addison was meant to be a good sleeper, but I just could no let her be - I needed the assurance of having her in my arms. By the way, I still rock her for 10 minutes or so - LOVE IT!!

The blog is getting a little word heavy and no pics - well, I tried to upload pics and the computer was giving me fits. It truly is ancient and I need to get things switched over to the current laptop, but as you know that is a huge undertaking. I'll try again when I have a FREE moment (laugh out loud - what mother, especially a resident's wife has free time!!)

Hope all are well. Have been out of cyber land for a while, so I have some catching up to do. Have a happy weekend - Chris is off tomorrow and the parents are coming in for a visit - OH HAPPY DAY!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Where has the time gone?

Life seems to be flying by lately. Seems as though I am always a day behind and the to do list consistently is increasing instead of decreasing. Today has just been a day that I could have used a husband and my girls could have used a daddy, but instead sick little girls and boys were handled with care by our daddy and hubby. I know God has called him, but sometimes it is so difficult.

A conversation with Chris recently went something like this, "Remember when you reminded me to turn off my closet light." (Chris) Laughing I said, "Yeah, that was when everything was in order and I had time to worry about lights being left on. Which Sara do you prefer, the old one or the new one that cannot remember if the water bill was paid on time." Laughing he said, "A happy medium would be nice." (He was kidding of course).

Over the past year I have grown and changed so much. Today I cried more tears than I have in a long time. Life is hard and at times it seems so unfair. I am so thankful that God is teaching me to seize the moments I have with my girls and enjoy time with them. The dishes can wait, the laundry is not going anywhere and believe it or not, the bills always seem to get paid. Do I miss the old me, oh yes - how I wish I had it all together, but would I trade all that I have for an organized filing cabinet - NEVER!

I love you Kate and Addison. Chris we miss you more than you know!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

God is good

Almost three weeks ago God provided for the Robertson's in a huge way. I have been wanting to share our good news since it happened, but oh how little ones keep you busy and we have been away from home for almost two weeks now (way too long, but circumstances made it that way.)

As you know Addison did not tolerate any over the counter formula. We were instructed to give her Neocate (a complete elemental formula available online only). Neocate would cost us $37 every two days - hello, we definitely do not have that kind of money. Our parents had said they would help out, but I really did not want to depend on them financially. We had looked into WIC previously and Chris made $300 per month too much. We were also in the process of looking into the possibility of our insurance helping cover the costs. After talking with them it seemed highly unlikely that was an option.

SO.... we prayed and waited. One afternoon I knew something had to be done the samples were getting close to being gone. a) order Neocate online or b) try to figure out another option

I chose the latter. I went back online and read that sometimes WIC will cover the cost of formula based on a child's diagnosis and with a perscription. Hmmm... maybe just maybe this was the answer.

After three phone calls I had an appointment with the WIC office. I contacted our pediatrican - I cannot sing her praises enough (we love her!!)- to obtain a perscription. Perscription in hand with a 9:30 appointment and both girls in tow we headed to the WIC office. Two hours later we left the WIC office(okay, so when dealing with government ran programs time is really of no essence - but I did not care!!) being certified for EIGHT cans of formula per month - praise God!!!

Chris was talking to a nutritionist at the hospital about the situation (we needed one more can to make it until our supply was available) and she said the we should ask if we could get 11 cans since we were not getting food and the perscription was written for more ounces/day due to her condition.

I got back on the phone and beginning in April we will be receiving ELEVEN cans of Neocate per month from WIC - God is absolutely amazing and always provides. We will probably have to purchase 1-2 cans per month, but that is nothing in comparison to 13!

The story just gets better (if you are still reading!!!) I finally decided to make payment arrangements with the hospital to begin paying Addison's medical bills. The lady I was talking with asks me if we would qualify for the financial assistance program. I said um, not sure but tell me about it. After talking with her, I think we might qualify for some assistance. We are in the process of feeling out paperwork to see if the hospital will cover a portion of Addison's medical debt. Pray for this process - it is not as black and white as we initially thought, but I know whatever works out God will take care of us.

The last part of this story brought tears to my eyes and complete inability to speak. All of these things happened within two days of each other - still just get chills. One Wednesday Chris was just having an awful day - one of those days that resident wives say happen and you just wait for it to happen to your husband. It was that day, the day I had to encourage, the day Chris needed me to tell him God has a plan for you. YOU CAN DO THIS! The day we got a $500 check from a family whom I know is in the same financial spot we are. The only request in their letter was that we pay it forward. Readers, God is great!

Never before in my life have I felt so unworthy of such a financial gift. I have been the giver before, but honestly it was harder to receive than give. I immediately thought I should send this back. Then I remembered our prayers for God to provide. I know this family is a Christian family with God at the center of their lives - meaning God laid it on their hearts and they obeyed. Many times since that day this family pops into my head and I pray God blesses them more than they can ever imagine. That is what God did for us through them.

I have learned so much from the week of provision from God for our family. I learned that when we pray and trust God to provide - He does, not always in the way we think. I learned that when other people obey Him it affects more than just them. I learned that it is a blessing to receive and that you should allow yourself that opportunity.

God is amazing! Chris and I have been married for almost 6 years and through our marriage God has always shown himself to us. Over the past nine months God has allowed us to go through some of the toughest life adventures, but in the tough times sometimes we receive the biggest blessings. Life has not been easy by any measure over the past year, but God has been there every step of the way and provided more than ever expected. He has brought our family of four closer and Chris and I have grown in our marriage. Thank you for all of your prayers and support. I cannot imagine life without God first and foremost, but not sure what it would be like without family and friends either!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

How time flies!

Well, it's been a long time since my last post and I have so much good news to share about Addison and our journey, but catching the moment to get all the right words out seems to be impossible. I made a LONG trip back home last Tuesday for my grandpa's funeral and am still visiting family. The girls are enjoying family, but we all MISS Little Rock and Daddy - I said it, we miss Little Rock (it finally feels like home!) I will say that God is good and always provides more than you expect when you put your trust in Him! I'll give all the details soon. Hope everyone is enjoying the approach of spring!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Let's see

So, seriously sickness go away and NEVER come back!! Addison and Kate have been under the weather this week. Kate has popped back but poor Addison is still fighting something - Dr. Daddy came home yesterday and decided she needed some meds. Should be well soon!

This was my day yesterday....

Catch a pot holder on fire while cooking dinner
Holding 8 month old while unwrapping hot sweet potato (avoiding her crying) and wouldn't you know she grabbed it and burnt her hand - she's okay, I put it under cold water immediately
While eating dinner - Kate gags, vomits up entire dinner and then yes drinks out of my cup - disgusting!!

That sums up how yesterday went (should I add that Chris was um well let's see - WAY LATE getting home and extremely frustrated with things) - thankfully there is an end to those days and with the sunrise comes a new day - a fresh start!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

There's this little girl...

that means the world to me. Kate has been such a trooper over the past 8 months with moving to a new town, sharing mommy with not only a new sister, but one who required/requires lots of attention and care. This little girl keeps me on my toes and always offers up a new challenge - good and bad!! I love her more than words can express. She wears many hats around our house, here are a few.

ADVENTURER (swinging at the new playground we found - just in time for spring!)

PLAYFUL ONE

EXCELLENT LITTLE MOMMY (her babies were taking a bath in a big tub like Grammy and Pops's house)


CRAZY


INNOVATIVE (We decided to paint our body with glitter glue - what a mess!)
EXPERIMENTER ("I was getting the last little bit, mommy." - pudding out of a snack cup while putting Addison down for a nap. Not sure why the sour face - I could not keep from laughing when she told me the story.

SCIENTIST (Water table at the Wonder Place in Little Rock)



MOMMY'S HELPER

I cannot do a post about our Kate girl without sharing a few of her most recent funny stories. Last Tuesday as I was getting her out of the car for bible study she proceeds to tell me that her parts were talking (that is what we call our girl stuff). I said really, what were they saying. I'm not sure what all she said, but something about them laughing came out - you never know with this girl!

I had another one to share but my memory is getting awful. There are so many moments with this girl that just crack me up. You never know what is going to come out of her mouth. And yes, she loves to be naked - we have one rule -must always wear panties!

One of the most important things to this little girl right now is her doll house. Oh my goodness - I am so glad we decided to get this for Kate for Christmas. She absolutely loves it. Morning, noon and night she is requesting that you play doll house with her. If you visit our house - you will play doll house - no one is off limits (including Chris's resident friends - yeah, that's right Neil and Blaine have played doll house - the secret's out).



Most of all Kate is the best big sister Addison could ever ask for. She is always on watch for her - making sure she doesn't eat something off the floor (her babies have food allergies -too cute), climb on the fireplace and she better not get near the doll house!!

Oh how I love you Kate. Today was a day that many prayers for patience, guidance, patience, patience, patience were said, but I would never trade you in a heartbeat and love you just the way you are!

Friday, February 26, 2010

Bumps along the way

I keep telling myself the posts revolving around Addison and her FPIES will soon be over and I can consistently blog about our daily life, but what I am realizing is that this is part of our daily life.

Just when things were looking up and I found myself feeling "normal" and seeing sleep and complete happiness in our child we hit a wall.

It seems that when I quit mixing breastmilk with the Nutramigen Addison was unable to tolerate the formula. We went from a very happy, playful, sleeping 8 month old to an extremely fussy, irritable, rolling as if her tummy was in pain, stinky poo (TMI - I know), and about three hours of sleep at night. She also starting rejecting the formula but acting so hungry. In a 12 hour stretch she only drank six ounces - by far not enough. The child care worker at bible study even made comment that she seems so hungry but she will only take a few sips and then begins to cry and refuses the bottle - not sure what is going on. Chris had noticed that her skin was not looking as hydrated and she was becoming pale again - all signs that are not good. My motherly instinct told me something wasn't right and I found myself slipping back into extreme emotion of my child is getting sick again - why is this happening???? Chris is working nights right now - and of course nights are just scary when your kid is not doing well and you are alone at home.

With all that being said Chris got in contact with the allergy doctor and she told us to try a different formula - Neocate. This formula has to be ordered and is extremely expensive. The nutritionist gave us five cans to try. I hurried down to the clinic to pick it up on Wednesday afternoon and Addison sucked down a bottle immediately - I was starting to feel better and a sense of relief came over me.

After being on Neocate Wednesday evening and all day Thursday Addison slept at night again and she is back to her happy playful little self.

I know God has a plan for her little life and along the way He is teaching me so many things. He deserves so much more than I give Him and I am so grateful for his love and care for us - especially my children.

I pray each night that God watches over both of my girls, but I feel so much gratitude for what He has done for Addison.

Financially we cannot do this, and honestly when I think about the fact that she could not tolerate what most kids with soy and milk allergies take I realize how severe her allergy is and emotionally it is draining, but like I told my parents God did not bring Addison into this world to leave us to do this alone. He will provide and He has and will continue to take care of our sweet girl.

So, that's where I've been lately. Thank you for the sweet comments from my previous post - bittersweet endings. I needed those encouraging comments as we went through this trial this week - I was feeling some mother guilt over the nursing when she could not tolerate the Nutramigen.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Bittersweet Endings

You know those things in life that when you are finished, or your goal has been accomplished, or the good thing you have been waiting on is finally here and then it's OVER - that feeling you are left with inside - it's not regret, complete joy or even guilt it's just that feeling in your stomach that one cannot explain.

Well, I've had one of those experiences in the last week. If you keep up with my blog at all you've read about our sweet Addison and her journey with FPIES. I chose to continue nursing her and have never regreted the sacrifices I made in order to do so. Sure there were times I wished she would take a bottle or sleep through the night without the need of me, there were times I wanted to dive into a huge bowl of ice cream, but we all have will power when it comes to the well being of our children, but regret never!

Since Addison's diagnosis we have known that eventually she would need to be on special formula in order to fulfill her nutritional requirements. I was taking it a day at a time and was hopeful to make it to her first birthday. We had offered her the formula on different occasions and she always refused, so I was not sure how this switch from breastmilk to formula would go - I was very anxious about it.

Two weeks ago I got sick with 102 fever, chills and body aches for the second time in about 6 weeks. I just had not been feeling well and was starting to feel like the diet changes I was making was taking a toll on my body -there were a few other things going on I won't share here : ) I knew the time needed to be sooner rather than later for my health. I was taking extra supplements, but your body just tells you when enough is enough.

BUT, with all that said, I would have never stopped nursing. I just could not do it. I guess that second bout of sickness did my milk quality and quantity in. All last week Addison was fussy and just not her usual self. Chris was off last weekend and over the weekend we both were just confused by her discontent. I thought something was wrong with her mouth because she kept putting her fist in it and crying. Little did I know she was HUNGRY!

Something told me to pick up a can of overpriced Nutramagen - good thing I did. Tuesday afternoon Addison was nursing and just crying and very upset. I began to wonder if my milk was gone. Sure enough it was. I got a bottle and mixed a little bit of breastmilk in with Nutramagen and she sucked the bottle dry - this is a child that had refused a bottle since her hospital stays in October. I cried and knew it was over - bittersweet moment.

God took control of the situation and said it was over. I know He knew I never could and it was time. Even as I sit here now I am getting teary eyed. I have worked so hard to take care of Addison over the past 5 months since her diagnosis and even before when she was so fussy and I did not know what to do to make her not cry - oh how I remember those days.

Someone who saw her today - happy, smiling, and completely content would never imagine what all she has been through and how far she has come. She has been on straight formula since Thursday and is doing great. She honestly seems so much happier - she has a full tummy!! She actually slept throught the night for the first time and took two 1 1/2 hour naps (long nap for us) - yes, she is 8 months old tomorrow and it was a first for us. I know this is what is best for her and she is doing wonderful - it's mommy and her protectiveness that is still struggling at times.

As we close one chapter of Addison and her rare diagnosis, we open another. I know each new chapter in her life will be bittersweet. I am thankful for her health and progression forwards, but oh how hard it is to always leave her in the hands of our Maker.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

And She's Off


It's my chance to make a break for the bathtub - oh how I LOVE taking a bath!
Yeah, I made it without mommy catching me!

If I could just get this leg up a little higher. Daddy didn't quite get a picture, but I was hiking my leg up trying to CLIMB in. Mommy finally put me in!The best part, I get to share it with sister, oh and I love the foam letters. I always have to take one with me to get my jammies on or I scream!

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Valentine's Day

Hope your day was filled with LOVE! I just realized Chris and I do not take many pictures together anymore - need to work on that but too late V-Day (I'm in my comfy p.j.'s already!!) Today was wonderful - Chris was off of work and we actually all got to attend church together - rarely happens these days. Here are some pics of our Valentine festivities.
Kate iced and decorated cookies for daddy and his co-workers. We delivered them to the clinic on Friday afternoon - Kate and Addison were quite a hit.
Valentine presents ready to go! The keyboard and giggling pig were Christmas presents that were intended to be returned but I found them in the garage not long ago and decided to give them to the girls for Valentine's Day. Kate loves her piano and as you can see below Addison's favorite part of her gift was the card!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Four Months Ago Today...

Our lives were forever changed. Jesus held her tight and prayers were answered. How truly blessed we are.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Where to Start?

Last night I finally did it - uploaded pictures. I had not uploaded pictures from my camera since October 10th - insane! I do not know where to even start. Our family has had so many adventures between then and now, but for now I'll just update you on the girls.


Kate is such a great big sister. Always concerned about Addison and what she is doing. She cannot wait for her to walk and completely be able to interact with her. Kate loves to play with her dollhouse and her legos. She is quite a little mommy as well - she keeps her babies in line! Kate is such a smart little girl and loves to be NAKED - we require panties at all times. Hard to find appropriate pics of her right now! Then there's Mr. Bear (yes, he's got pink flowers on him, but long ago I referred to him as Mr. Bear and it stuck). Mr. Bear goes everywhere Kate goes - the potty, school, grocery store, EVERYWHERE! This little guy ranks really high and is well loved, as you can see!


Addison is a little climber. Today I was working in the kitchen and I heard the piano - Kate was on the couch and that's right, Addison had figured out how to reach the keys and with a big grin was playing away. She attempts almost anything and is constantly on the move - in the direction of where I am going most usually. She is such a blessing to our family and I just love her chubby little cheeks. I often refer to her as my "breast" friend - she loves to nurse. Today while I was pumping (in hopes of getting her on a bottle soon) she was climbing all over me attempting to move the pumping gear in order to indulge herself - crazy as ever!

This picture says it all! Oh how thankful I am!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

THIS tiny LITTLE WORD...

So there's this really small two letter word that trips a certain someone out in our house. So you ask, what might that word be..........................NO.

As a matter of fact that word might just be the biggest issue for my sweet little girl who is set to turn three at the end of April.

This word makes heads turn, legs kick, bodies flop and yes the occasional 360 degree spin - some might consider her to be an Olympic athlete of the future. Those are just the body movements. We are so talented that we are able to include a face full of tears, once in a while a continuous buzz sound (not sure how to describe that) and even a cough or two in between.

Oh how I love you sweet precious Kate, but oh how I wish you could just understand that NO means NO and regardless of your actions - It Will Not Change.

I love you - here's to loving our amazing two year olds!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Baby it's snow outside!

So far in Little Rock the meteorologists have not been impressive. The last two icings/snows we have had were not even predicted and about a month ago Little Rock shut down to a trace of snow- people it was crazy!!

Wish I was more organized and could share pictures - BUT, still have not uploaded pics since October - where does time go????

Little Rock has 6 inches of snow and it was beautiful this afternoon watching it fall to the ground. Our good friends sharing this crazy journey of residency with us have never really seen/lived in snow. Last weekend it iced and they were psyched, Chris and I laughed and told them it wasn't snow, but today they got to experience it all - driving included : )

We've all been sick so we didn't get the girls out in it today, but hopefully tomorrow we can all bundle up and enjoy some snow. Kate loved it last time, Addison not so much - so we'll see.

Hope you are all staying warm!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Proud little wifey

Maybe some of you caught the Dateline NBC episode Sunday night showcasing Arkansas Children's Hospital - and yes, that is where Chris is doing his residency. I am one proud little wife after watching the report. It is pretty amazing to watch and know that your husband is saving lives and training at such a great facility and program. Obviously I already knew this through our experiences with Addison, but now the world does too!!

It was a great report and should make any resident spouse feel proud. It was taped over the course of last year, so Chris is not in the report, but he works side by side all of those who are.

Here is the link if you are interested in watching. Enjoy - all you mommy's out there, a tear or two might be shed. It took me back to our visits with Addison (very similar to a few you will see in the report - tons of people crowding over a small child while the room is full of doctors and pharmacists, etc. - um I completely melted when I walked into that) and I am so thankful that God protected her and she is with us today! Forever changed is what I always say. Thank you Jesus!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/3032600/

Thursday, January 21, 2010

It's easy to lose yourself...

to residency (blah! blah! blah!) - same story of working tooooooo many hours for toooooooo little pay!

to a sick child who is a book of health - funny how that works

to a camera card full of pictures yet to be seen by anyone, including myself!

to a garage full of boxes still waiting to be discovered - hmm, they might just have to wait another couple of years


Seriously, life has been crazy over the past seven months (Addison turns seven months tomorrow and we moved when she was 5 days old - crazy!!) but I have learned so much! I really take life minute by minute and laugh so much more than I used to - God has a sense of humor. From our struggles of leaving friends and family moving into an apartment where I thought the walls might just close in on me to almost losing what is most precious to us - our sweet Addison, to falling into slight depression after the fact trying to digest it all, to moving yet again (but into a house - so full of excitement), to facing the fear of allowing Addison to EAT - yes folks it was some anxiety to overcome, to umm - hate to admit, putting my child back in her bed (she slept with us for about 3 months - not recommended!!), to here I am back on the internet - hoping the streak will continue and I can continue to LIVE!

Over the past few months I have learned a few things...

  • Always look forward - learn from the past, but do not dwell on the past
  • God never leaves you - seems elementary, but I had to be reminded
  • If ______ happens then ________ - I feel like God allowed me to attend a Beth Moore bible study (Esther) at our church last spring in preparation for our journey this year. I did not get to finish the study, but one thing I took from it is this principle: Whatever your worst fear is of happening to you happens, you will still pick yourself up and move forward. If Addison gets sick (that Oct. 13th night - dies) then, I will continue to live and take care of my family - I was there people!
  • God places people in your life for a reason. I have made a life long friend in Little Rock - it felt like it happened overnight!
  • Do what you can and let the rest be done by other people - hard concept for me. I want to do it ALL!
I know I have learned so much more, but I'll quit boring you with my come back to the blog moment! Anyway, life is going well. Addison is doing great - sleeping in her own bed, eating a few fruits and veggies, CRAWLING everywhere and cracking up at everything Kate says and does! Kate is Kate. She loves life and lives it to the fullest. We could all learn a thing or two from her - never hold back, give it all you got! Chris is working hard and on vacation next week - YEAH!! As for me, well, I'm still the same old Sara with a few new life experiences that continue to grow me.