Who are you?

Over the past three weeks our family has undergone major changes - new baby, moving away from friends and family, leaving our house of luxury for an apartment that has nasty carpet that leaves your feet black and has a lingering smell of dog urine (yes, we've cleaned it a million times).

Chris and I prayed about our life changes and this is where God has taken us - easy, no, but in His plan, YES! I am not one to be negative or give up. Even with a 5 day old making the journey to Arkansas, I stayed positive - not worried about the future, BUT.....

Over the past two weeks I feel as though I have given up - that is not who I am! I do not lay down and die.... I meet people, create community and get out of the house. I know that with a three week old, lots of things are difficult to do, but seeing a bright future is something!

I have been back in OK for almost a week now and the time away has been good. I've realized that home is Chris, Kate and Addison - no matter where we live. Home is not our old town and all that went with it - yes life would be easier and I would probably shed fewer tears, but my happiness is with my family. Everytime someone from "home" sends me a text, calls or emails, I get wattery eyed and start thinking back, but I know God will provide all that again, I just have to let him. I have missed Chris like crazy and cannot wait to get back to Arkansas to be with him - the few hours I will see him : )

I miss my SAA group and other medical spouses like crazy - there are some things only these individuals get. There are only two other males in Chris's intern class married - one is expecting a baby in August, the other I could have taught in school!! Both of their husbands have talked to Chris and said they are lonely and bored - so I am going to email them and start having get togethers - I can see clearly now that God has a plan and in a year from now I will look back to these rough few months and see how God was working in me!

WHO ARE YOU?