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Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas!

Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas with Christmas cards unsent (maybe we'll do New Year's Cards - ha!) and pictures not posted, but what a wonderful time of year. How blessed we are to have a Saviour born just to save us.

Addison is enjoying the wrapping paper more than gifts, but hey she's loving it. She's a whopping 6 months old now and is growing into quite a ornery little thing - we love her sooooo much!

Kate is all about Santa this year, but she knows it is baby Jesus's birthday and I love her to explain the story of baby Jesus - too cute as she talks about it in her language.

Merry Christmas!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

In Existence!!

Yes, the Robertson's still exist and yes my blogging has dramatically decreased over the past 5 and 1/2 months and majorly decreased over the past two months. Life has changed so much and I find myself praying for a moment of "me" time most days - usually it doesn't occur - therefore the things I like to do - BLOG, etc... have been put on the back burner.

Update on Addison - still putting trust in God. Her lab results came back last week and her pyruvate and lactate continue to be elevated and the panel of about 30 tests that were done, one of them came back elevated - this is metabolically related. Her pediatrican is talking with the geneticists who reported on her labs. L-CHAD is what she could also possibly have on top of FPIES. Thankfully Addison is not exhibiting any of the symptoms and is developmentally doing great! I still find myself questioning all of this and wondering if it will ever end, but trying to put my faith in the Father.

Kate - silly as ever. She loves her new house and was only mildly confused that we still live in Little Rock - the brain of a two year old. She loves to eat frozen chicken nuggets and frozen waffles - pre - cooked, but still weird to me! She is so protective of Addison and is already super careful about food around her - she will say she has an allergy. It is so fun to see her developing into a little girl.

Chris - um who is that - oh, that's right it's the pediatric intern that randomly appears at odd hours in our house. Boy, I never knew this journey would be so difficult. Thankfully his November and December rotations are supposed to be the toughest of the intern year. In reality he gets 4 days off per month, has been on call more times than I can count and works extremely long hours - preaching to the choir for a lot of you resident spouses out there.

Then there is me - Yes, I am still Sara, but at times I feel like I have totally lost myself amidst residency, packed and unpacked boxes, a strict diet (no brownies on rough nights), and two beautiful girls (one of which depends on me for everything right now). I am the Sara who ran the show and was always upfront and now at times I am thankful to end the day without having shed tears. God is growing me so much through this process of finding myself (Chris is my best friend and how I miss him) and coping with "it all".

I have so many things to share that we have experienced over the past almost 6 months in Little Rock - let me tell ya, Arkansas knows how to throw a State Fair - ha! ha! Oh and if the next time you talk to me I have a slight drawl you'll know why - I've been living in Arkansas!! I'm working on a post of all the memories we've made so far and plan to publish it soon.

Please continue to pray for sweet Addison. Pray for her health. Pray for her sleep - depends on me for that too! Pray for wisdom of those taking care of her. PRAY.

Friday, November 27, 2009

I'm thankful for...

This year Thanksgiving meant a little more. I am thankful for my sweet precious little girl, Addison who has blessed the socks off of our family. Pray for her as we go for more blood work on Monday. All her test results came back and she has elevated pyruvate, lactate and some fatty acids are also elevated. The pyruvate and lactate are being repeated and a second test is being run to tell us more about the fatty acids. It could all be due to diarrhea, but they have to rule out any other issues.

Kate is thankful for...
Daddy
Mommy
Addison
Daddy
Mommy
For having a trip

I'm so thankful for Kate and her spunkiness, Chris and his devotion to our family and my family for their support during these hard times - THANKS!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Forever changed...

November 13th marked the one month anniversary of Addison's first episode. Over the past month life has completely changed and I have been forever changed. I have not been checking email, blogging, even communicating with the world except for a few close friends. I needed time to digest all of what went on and needed time to sort things out. I have been at my parents house for two weeks on Thursday - wow, long time away from home. Chris has been working 15 hour days and has had four 30+ hour shifts since I have been away. I cannot say thank you enough to those of you who have continued to lift our family up in prayer - we still need it!

Addison is doing well and will celebrate 5 months on the 22nd of November - time truly does fly. Her almost two week stay in the hospital did us in on sleeping and eating, but I figure eventually things will work back out. She is having more labs done on the 23rd to re-check her lactate and pyruvate levels and I received a call today saying they are adding one more panel of tests - not sure what, the doctor is supposed to call and explain. Addison has become a very happy and playful baby, has two bottom teeth and LOVES her mommy!

Kate has started asking more questions recently about Addison's episodes. Just tonight she was talking to me about trying to help me be patient on the way to the hospital. She is slowly working through things as best as a two year old can. She is so excited about moving into our new rent HOUSE the first weekend in December. It will be nice to finally have a place with a yard to play in.

For me, the biggest issue I face is trust. Some people take Addison's diagnosis of FPIES seriously while others seem to think of it as any other allergy. Both are equally bad and life-threatening, it is just that FPIES is so rare most doctors do not even know what they are dealing with. Addison's allergy doctor told me I would probably always know more than a doctor seeing Addison in an emergency room- scary! Addison has to have IV fluids and must be closely monitored if she ingests anything with soy, milk, or rice - rarest thing ever. Her body goes into "shock". - low blood pressure, etc.

Chris is working hard and needs prayer. I know God has a plan and purpose for our family even in the midst of hardship. Never before has life seemed so scary, unsure and INSANE - but God is bringing us through!

God Knew...
Chris cancelled his rotation to ACH three times during his fourth year of medical school, to end up rotating in September of last year and loving it

In the hush hush process of ranking, Chris ranked OU OKC ahead of ACH (to be closer to family) and right before he submitted he just looked at me and said it's not right - I assured Chris we would be ok and to follow God's direction - there are no accidents!

Addison was born at just the right time. I was able to have excellent care from my doctor (placenta acreta with both babies) but all of her health care has been in Arkansas with the most amazing pediatrician.

After Addison's second episode we were almost dismissed and I was actually told by an attending to quit entertaining the thought of it being an allergy - how dare her! That was the only thing out of the ordinary on both days that Addison had an episode. To make a long story short, a new doctor saw Addison the day we were to be dismissed without a diagnosis and she immediately knew what it was - her friends child (who is also a resident at ACH) has FPIES as well - now you cannot tell me that is a coincidence!

There are so many ways that God has shown Himself to us during this time. He chose to allow Addison to continue to bring happiness to us on this earth. I cannot say I know what it feels like to lose a child, but I can say I know what it feels like to think you lost a child. I have never pleaded with God about anything like I did on the way to the hospital on October 13th - the words, Jesus don't take my baby poured from my mouth and please God protect her. I'm sure Kate thought I was crazy but I didn't know what else to do - the worse feeling I have ever felt.

I am returning home in a few days and I know life is going to be complicated with residency and establishing a "new" normal, but I feel like I'm ready for the challenge again after visiting with friends from Tulsa and getting time to take care of myself with the help of family. Thanks to all of you who held us close. Word traveled fast and I know the prayers from even strangers were heard by God - Thank you!

Forever Changed...

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

News...

I know some of you who read are wondering what's going on with Addison. We are still waiting to hear all the results from the metabolic testing - should know something hopefully this evening or tomorrow. This is a genetics thing and any of you who know anything about genetics know it is confusing!!!

Concerning to momma is the fact that she has started diarrhea diapers again. Poop never meant so much to me. Pray for those to cease!

Kate is doing well through all of this - we have gotten so off schedule and honestly it may be a while before things calm down. One milestone we hit last Friday coming to the hospital to pick up mommy and baby Addison - the WHY QUESTIONS!!! There are lots of why's in her life right now, so I guess it was fitting.

Why? Why? Why? - wish I knew!!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Addison

I'm sure that most of you who read my blog regularly have already heard on Tuesday night we had basically the same event happen that was described in my previous post. Chris said he liked how I detailed things in that post, but I don't think I can relive it again, so I'll just give you the facts without all the emotion - sorry if that is boring!

Addison has been diagnosed with FPIES- Food Protein Induced Enterocolitis Syndrome. This is a very rare allergy of soy, dairy and rice - possibly more later. Unlike an anaphylactic allergy that is responsive to epinepherine (epi-pen) FPIES is not. If she ingests, we will have episode like the last two and immediately must call 911. Her BP goes low and she needs IV fluids, etc. at the hospital to recover. In talking with the allergist Friday, it appears that Addison is on the extreme end of FPIES - it is really scary and dangerous. I will become the organic allergy mom! One encouraging note, some kids grow out of FPIES around 3 - that's our prayer.

This journey is not over due to the metabolic tests. Initially the genetics doctor did not think her high levels were worrisom, but they continue to be elevated. After re-testing Friday morning, her pyruvate and lactate levels are elevated and in the critical levels. A Genetics doctor discussed with us keeping her and beginning work ups to see what is going on metabolically or going home, resting and seeing/talking to him on Monday - hardest decision I've made, but her little body had no more veins to poke and she needed a break (so did momma and dadddy). He feels that the levels should have normalized in this time frame. This is all very confusing, but hopefully we will have more answers soon. We were instructed to return to the ER if she presents with any atypical behavior. Pray for her safety and peace! Thanks for the prayers! We know God is in control!

Over the past two weeks God has been showing me how He worked this out. I'm not quite ready to post of all God did to prepare me and provide the best care available to Addison, but soon I will detail it out - it is so awesome how God goes before us and prepares the way!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

In the blink of an eye...

What is most precious to you could be ripped away. This is how I felt Tuesday night when Addison nearly stopped breathing and the ambulance was lost.


Happy, smiley self, baby Addison as we refer to her around here took a turn for the worse on Tuesday evening around 8:00. Chris and I had been out for dinner and left her and Kate for no more than an hour at our church for free childcare - I felt guilty, but I think for my marriage it is important to utilize these opportunities (not sure when/if I will get myself to again). We got home and started bedtime routine. Kate was fussy and tired, but honestly Addison seemed fine. Chris was taking off her clothes and a full out vomitting episode occurred. He turned her over and pounded her back and she seemed okay. We rinsed her off, etc. and I took Kate to bed while Chris finished up with Addison. Suddenly I hear a voice call out my name - Chris is sounding scared.


Addison had vomitted a second time and became white as a sheet and was not really responsive. She was breathing but very shallow and faint. She was wobbling her head and her eyes were opening and closing very slowly. Chris immediately told me to call 911 - he knew she needed oxygen fast. He was doing a great job, but was very scared. Addison looked scary and was not doing well at all - very unresponsive to anything.


Ambulance arrives after I called back to verify where they were at - I could hear them all around, but not in sight. I flagged them down and got them to the door. The paramedic took her straight to the ambulance and asked for a blanket. Chris followed - she knew he was a pediatrician.


Kate and I got in the car - its all a blur as to how I drove to the hospital. I repeated over and over in my head the exits I needed to take and out loud I was begging God not to take my baby. Kate never quit talking. She kept telling me to be patient we would get there. I was upset because I could not keep up with the ambulance. For those of you who don't know, I'll share with you a little bit of info about an ambulance ride. If they are running with lights and speeding, it is bad - this means the patient is not doing well. I was going 10 over and the ambulance was no where in sight- I was hysterical to say the least. Preparing myself for really bad news.


Finally, we arrive. I get into the ER as quick as I can - passing my friend Christine (I had called her to come get Kate), going through the metal detector and round the corner to find my baby in the trauma room with about 20 people surrounding her - nurses, pharmacy, attendings, residents - you name it they were there. I handed Kate to Blaine (Christine's husband, a resident with Chris) and I lost it - totally broke down. The social worker calmed me down and to Addison I headed. She was being poked everywhere - so many tubes, but she was crying - tears never sounded so good.


Addison had blood drawn, urine analysis done, spinal tap, CT scan, x-ray, poop cultures done, and probably more - and nothing has been found so far. Praise God, but it's hard not to have answers. They are concerned about her acid reflux - thinking she may have aspirated along with severe dehydration from diarrhea and vomiting causing the incident.


Looking back, her bowel movements had increased, but I thought that was good - her system was working better (I was wrong). While in the ER Addison received 3 boluses of fluid (equivilant to 3 bags of fluid for an adult) and did not have urine until 5 am the next morning - DEHYDRATION at its best. Addison cracked her first smile at 3 am, but didn't laugh until well into the next day. We spent three days hooked up to IV fluids praying she would start eating by mouth better and eventually she did. She stayed awake for about 5-10 minutes at a time for two days. I'm here to tell you this little girl was sick!!


Shortly after things calmed down in the ER, I found out that Chris had to bag her in the ambulance - I knew it was bad if they were running fast with lights. Praise God Chris was home, this might have had a different ending. The paramedic was uncomfortable with the pediatric patient and was not responding real well. You are never supposed to have to bag your own child, but Chris was able to - how, I have no idea. At one point in the ambulance the paramedic told the EMT to call ahead and let them know it was worse than expected - it was bad! They labeled Addison as ALTE - Acute Life Threatening Event. They were prepared for the worse.


No more questioning why we are here - God brought us here for such a time as this. Chris was off for three days and encouraged to be with us, attendings, the program director, tons of residents all came to check on Addison and gave their opinion. God has provided Chris and I with great friends Blaine and Christine and they totally stepped up for us. I was hysterical with Blaine on the phone and he knew they were needed. They took care of Kate for us without any hesitation. God has provided life long friends for us. Christine and I have had lots of adventures together already and I know we will have many more. Our church family visited, called and prayed for us. It is so difficult to know how your church family will come through for you until a need arises - they were there and have continued to check on us. We praise God for providing them for us.


I will never be the same. One thing that kept creeping through my brain while I was speeding to the ER was I have no regrets. I have rocked my sweet baby to sleep just about every night since she has been born. She is a fussy little toot at times with all her tummy issues and acid reflux, but I have found so much joy in her. I have left the dishes another day, the laundry in baskets and the clutter around the apartment to spend more time with my girls - not a regret one! Why God allows us to go through such tramautic events I'm not sure, but thankfully when it is all over we have Him to trust in, right now that's what I have to do - it is so hard to sleep.


Prayer - the prayers that went up for this little girl were numerous. All over Oklahoma people were praying and in Arkansas the word spread fast too. So many people lifted up my baby - people I didn't even know. My brother-in-law called a friend who was with a group doing PX90 and they stopped and sent up massive prayers. Prayer works! I truly believe my baby is here with us today because people prayed and God allowed her to stay here on earth with us longer. He provided Chris with wisdom, knowledge and the ability to work on his own child. He simply allowed Chris to be off of work (one of three days for the month). He provided a quick friendship with Christine which allowed me to totally focus on Addison while Kate was with her.


GOD IS IN CONTROL!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Addison is home!

You may or may not know that we've been in the hospital since Tuesday - got home this afternoon. Haven't had much sleep - brain still isn't working that great, but praise God Addison is doing better. It truly was a scary time. Just wanted to say thanks to those of you who prayed Tuesday night and have continued. I'll give the full story soon, but pretty exhausted at the moment.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

There's this guy...

Who is extremely sleep deprived and finds himself missing the last 5 minutes of any show (wait, he doesn't have time to watch television) he is watching. Misses his girls tons when he is working, but makes the most of every moment with them.

And looks really um, "HOT" in a white coat - especially a long one!

Chris, Daddy we love you and miss you so much. Thanks for working so hard to take care of us and even though life right now seems impossible most of the time you could not make us any more proud. WE LOVE YOU!

Friday, October 2, 2009

keepin it real...and two beautiful girls

Okay, so I have totally dropped the ball on "my plan" - life's too short to dwell though, right!!! So, here is a quick catch up on the Robertson's and hopefully I'll get back on track with blogging! Chris was on vacation the last full week of September - loved every minute of it. He started Wards on October 1 - urgh! He only has three days off for the month, three overnight calls, four long calls (late evening) and a two day retreat - single parenting at its best!! - just kidding, well kind of anyway. He is all here when at home and is the best daddy in the world. These hours are killing him, but he knows God has a plan for him. Addison was 3 months on the 22nd of September and Kate is approaching 2 1/2 at the end of the month. A friend from church told me about a dance class her little girl is in and they needed a couple more little girls to keep the class, so Kate joined. She loves it so far and is so stinkin cute. Her teacher is one of the minister's wife's at our church. Isn't God great! Addison is giggling and smiling so much. She is a bit spoiled - colicky baby = spoiled baby, but she's definitely a keeper. I took them to have their pics made today and I fell in love all over again. Here are a few.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Thursday's Thoughts....Ha! Ha!

So on Wednesday I was having a "I'm bored with my blog" moment and decided to take an adventure and try to organize every day by theme - my thoughts are totally not going to happen. So, in saying that I'm going back to my old ways. I am going to try to show more of our crafts and "school" type of activities and plan to use the tot school blog to assist in this - it really is a cool blog. I am going to weigh in on Wednesday's and continue to give tips, etc. This helps keep me accountable and hopefully will help others along the way. There you have it - I am crazy! Those of you who know me in real life know that and know my big aspirations, at least reality hit rather quickly yesterday - won't give you a play by play, but it was a stressful day!!

In great news - Chris starts vacation today after he gets off of work - YEAH! We are going to take the girls to Hot Springs for the night - thought that would be fun. Kate has never stayed in a hotel. Tuesday after bible study we are heading back to OK! We are so excited.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! I'll see you next week, not so scheduled : )

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Blog Business

There are two parts to my bloggy business today. First if you notice I have added some new blogs to my list. If you have been added and would rather not be listed publicly, email me or leave me a comment and I'll remove you. Also if you are a reader and I do not know about you!!! - leave me a comment and I will add your blog to my list - I would love to keep up with if you are keeping up with me!

The second part of my bloggy business is something new I am going to try - hopefully I'll have time to do this and keep it up. I've been thinking lately of ways I can keep family up to date on the Robertson happenings, provide an outlet for myself to write what's on my mind and have fun on my blog. I love blogging and it really does help me stay sane, especially now with Chris gone so much. So, I have decided to have a theme for each day of the week. Here it goes.

  • On My Mind Monday
  • Tot School Tuesday
  • Weigh in Wednesday
  • Thursday's Thoughts
  • Family Friday

On My Mind Monday - Here you will find things that have been circling in my mind - maybe for the day, weeks or months.

Tot School Tuesday - If you notice I added a link titled Tot School. A friend of mine introduced me to this blog - really cool - check it out here. I am going to try and incorporate some of her ideas and some of my own and blog about what Kate has done over the week on Tuesday's.

Weigh in Wednesday - Exactly how it sounds. So if you've recently joined me you can read about my weightloss struggles, etc. here. Addison was born on June 22 and I weighed in at 177 - I gained 35 pounds with her pregnancy. I lost 15 pounds without doing a thing, but I have 20 pounds to get back to pre-pregnancy weight. Every Wednesday morning I will step on the scale and keep track of my progress on my blog. I will also try to give tips, healthy recipes, etc. that I have learned along the way. I have not started exercising yet, but plan and will today. I am not much of a dieter - doesn't work well for me, but I always try to be mindful of what goes in my mouth!!! If this is a journey you want to take along with me, make Wednesday your weigh in day and post your success on my comments. You do not have to be as bold as me and post numbers, but you can always brag on how much you've lost - I want to celebrate with you, it is a TOUGH journey!

Thursday's Thoughts - Thursday's will be another opportunity for me to post my thoughts. Always expect something random!

Family Friday - Friday's are the days for grandparents, family and friends who want to know what cuteness Kate and Addison have been up to. I will post pictures and give you a recap of our week.

I am going to try this system and see how it works. I am excited to have a format - I thrive on a schedule (although I still have yet to get a real good one at home - ha! ha!). Hope you enjoy!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

So excited.... bible study!

Anxious and nervous I headed off to bible study to make friends, oh yeah that's right and to grow in my relationship with Jesus : ) - just kidding with the sarcasm - it's for both.

Addison screamed the entire way - I have decided some baby's are just not always happy. She's one extreme or the other and lately it's been tears ALOT - but I'm embracing it!! Honestly I feel sorry for her - tummy issues prevail! Kate just loves church and every opportunity to go, so she was excited.

The church is offering four different studies, one is geared towards moms and is titled Mom To Mom - based off of Titus 2. Anyway, I am so excited - lots of girls from Sunday School attended and the lady who is leading is my senior by 40 years or more - isn't that great - so much wisdom. This is not just any old bible study - here is the layout.

We have two separate books we are going through. When we study Apples of Gold (once per month) - we will be meeting in older lady's houses where they will teach us things (cooking, etc.) and then eat an early lunch with them - so neat right. When we study the Mom to Mom book (twice per month) we watch a video and discuss, etc. - very typical bible study format, BUT they have incorporated what is titled Snipits - (hair dresser showing us tricks, photographer teaching how to take good pics, etc.) - how fun!! The last Tuesday of the month we will be going to a Rice Factory (I think that is what she said) to do volunteer/ministry type of work.

So, I am so excited to get this opportunity. I have never been a part of something that incorporated different areas of service. I already feel more a part of what is going on.Just wanted to share!
I challenege/encourage you to get involved in some kind of mom's group - the support is necessary to make it through this blessed, but challenging time of life. I look at my girls and feel so blessed and undeserving.

Monday, September 14, 2009

It's Official

Well, we finally took the plunge on Sunday and joined Immanuel Baptist Church in Little Rock. This was hard as ever. We LOVE our church family in Jenks, but we know we have to find a place to serve here, so with lots of prayer we felt like this was where God was leading us.

Kate absolutely loves the church. They have an indoor and outdoor play ground, it is a jungle themed pre-school facility with a fish tank and a nice old guy gives out suckers to all the kids when they leave (she calls them sticks). It made our decision so much easier since she loves going to church - only cried the first Sunday.

Addison is taken well care of - yes, I'm the mother that leaves the baby early. She was staying in nursery at like 4 weeks. I figure there are fewer germs in the nursery, she gets held and rocked instead of being toted around in the carrier, and I get a break for a couple of hours. I love how they have things set up. I feel completely comfortable leaving her.

Chris and I have been attending a bible fellowship class with young couples like ourselves. We are still working on forming relationships - that has been much harder this time around. Tomorrow I am starting a bible study for mom's, so that should be great.

Here is a picture of the girls from Sunday. Kate had to wear that jacket to take the dogs out to potty and wouldn't take it off for pictures and the bow was long gone! - oh how I love my 2 year old!! - I really do!!!!

Friday, September 11, 2009

Still here!

Cannot believe it has been over a week since I last posted. So much has happened in the Robertson house. As usual I do not have pictures uploaded, but maybe this weekend I'll find a few minutes to do so : )

Chris started an amazing rotation in September - yeah for Developmental Pediatrics. Great hours, no weekends or call - does it get any better - oh yeah, he has a week of vacation coming up at the end of the month. I must say we NEEDED this month to come - August was long and hard, but we made it.

Over Labor Day we decided to head back home and we visited Chris's parents for the weekend. Kate had so much fun playing wit Patience and Rhett (her cousins). Papa took them fishing and Kate caught the first and biggest fish. She also went to see chickens, goats and lots of other fun things. We all got some much needed rest - didn't realize how little rest we have been getting with the apartment noises - which will be over soon!!! We had a lot of fun and I will post some pictures soon.

Addison is getting bigger each day. She is smiling so much now and is very interactive. Being a mommy the second time around has been so much more relaxing for me. I am enjoying the moments as they come instead of always anticipating the next milestone.

Kate is a 2 1/2 year old going on 16. She is full of attitude and spunk. Love her dearly, but there are days that I find myself overwhelmed with parenting - can I get an amen!!

Hope everyone has been well! Have a wonderful weekend!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Mother's Day Out

Kate went to Mother's Day Out for the first time today. We called it "school" and she was so excited. I was actually a little sad when I left her this morning - she couldn't wait, but it was a sign my baby is growing up. I feel so blessed to have this option. The church we have been attending and plan to join - Immanuel Baptist Church- provides this service to members and prospective members for $6 for one child or $8 for two on a drop in basis. Not only is it dirt cheap, but they also provide a curriculum. After picking Kate up this afternoon she told me she had lots of fun. I cannot believe how big and grown up she is getting. She has missed all of her friends in Jenks/Tulsa, so hopefully she'll start making some new ones. Here is a picture of her this morning - the best I could get.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Blessed








Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Schedule

So I've been thinking a lot about our schedule at home. I have always wanted to provide Kate (and now Addison) with opportunities to expand her knowledge and create fun memories for her. I never just wanted to be the mom who sat around and did not interact with her kids. Adding baby #2 has really been hard with this aspect - there are feedings every 3 hours, diapers, naptime, and fussiness that take away from structured activity time and the ease of going places.

With this all being said, today I made a schedule that I hope to start in September. I must admit, with Chris working nights since the last week of July I have been on somewhat of a survival mode - way too much TV, late nights with Kate and spoiling Addison to death - but we've made lots of memories along the way, I just need a little more structure to my day.

Below is my goal for a regular week. Please leave me advice, helpful blogs, books, etc in the comments. I have the Toddler's Busy Book, which I plan to use and have used in the past. And YES, I know my week will probably never go as planned, but for me if I do not plan, it will never get done!!


7:00 - generally time Kate wakes up

7:00-9:00, TV (while feeding Addison), breakfast, get dressed, free play

9:00 - structured activity - "school" time - learning letters, numbers, etc. I also plan to start teaching her bible verses and stories at this time. We typically do this before bed, but I think it would work better during the day.

10:00- TV time/snack (while nursing Addison)

10:30 - 12:00 - free play/ color/ play dough/ puzzles - things along this nature

12:00 - lunch

12:30 - clean up/read stories

1:00 - 3:00 naptime- yeah!!

3:00 - 4:00- snack, craft acitivity

4:00 - TV time (feeding Addison)

4:30 - free play until dinner

Dinner
Play
Bedtime Routine

I hope to follow this type of schedule on Monday's, Wednesday's, and Friday's. On Tuesday's I am going to start attending a bible study from 9:30-11:30, so we will adjust. Kate is going to go to Mother's Day Out on Thursday's (for church members/prospective members only and it is on a drop in basis for $6 - what a deal). I also love to go places, so I hope to do at least one out of the house activity per week. This includes things like the zoo, library, etc. I am sure we will frequent playgrounds during some of our play time when it gets a little cooler.

So, now that I've detailed every hour of my day, knowing I will never be able to completely follow such a schedule, here are my basic goals. Do a morning and afternoon activity with hopes of teaching her letters, numbers, etc. and get out of the house at least once per week to do something fun with the girls. Most importantly sieze the moments I have with the most precious two things God has given me - Kate and Addison.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Big Girl Kate

I've been holding off bragging on my sweet girl Kate, but I can hold back no longer. Kate you are an amazing big sister and have transitioned so well. You have fully embraced apartment life (you periodically ask for a backyard and we tell you we are working on it - you take it) and moving away from friends - much better than mommy!! I am so proud of you. You are speaking in sentences and so clearly. Some of your favorite phrases right now are "I don't think so" and "I don't know". You love to stick your tongue out while your picture is being taken - not sure why- and when being videoed you want to watch yourself. You love Yo Gabba Gabba and Wonder Pets. You "feed" Mr. Bear at night - just like mommy feeds Addison. You are a precious gift from God and I am so thankful for you. I cannot believe how grown up you are.


Your latest accomplishment brings the biggest smile to mommy's face. You have been asking to get your froggy potty out, but mommy keeps putting you off (I didn't have the time or energy - so I thought). Finally last Tuesday I agreed and you immediately sat down and pottied - Kate, you are one amazing girl - you have only had two accidents since then. You've even been waking up dry most mornings. I never ask you about using the potty, you just go - I guess God knew I couldn't handle potty training because GIRL, you trained yourself!!


I love you!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Addison Claire - 2 months

Addison, you are loved. In the past two months you have made me a mommy again, given Kate someone to love on and take care of and given daddy another princess. You are such a sweet baby. You came into this world with a peaceful spirit, but that quickly changed. It was so hard not knowing what was making you cry and look in pain, but slowly we got it all worked out. You smile and coo now, especially at Kate. You enjoy your bouncy seat and swing and like catching a glimpse at the TV - your sister didn't know what the TV was at your age!! You are getting so chunky and round - just the way I like my babies. You moved to a new town when you were only 5 days old, you have already visited the zoo twice and even road the train. You love to cuddle with mommy and get a little nervous when sister "holds" you. I cannot imagine life without you sweet baby. WE LOVE YOU!


First trip to McDonald's. On our way to Little Rock when you were only 5 days old.

Your first bath at home. You love your baths now - as long as sister doesn't get to rowdy!

Your first Sunday to go to church - looking pretty as ever!

First visit to the zoo. You were about one month old and slept most of the time.


You suck a pacifier right now, but you really really try to get your thumb in your mouth. I am guessing that very soon you'll figure it out and the paci will hit the road - you really do not like it that much.
Sleeping Beauty! You would love to sleep on your tummy, but Mr. Pediatrician Daddy says no way (and so do his co-workers)! We are toughing it out, but you are doing so much better. You love to be swaddled when you sleep - you still manage to do complete circles in your bed.

Daddy misses you so much. Looking a little scary here - post call!! Daddy worked nights the last week of July and all of August - it was a rough time for all of us.
I promise your dress has a blue polka dot that matches your bow and socks!



Sister is teaching you how to color while you swing. You love your big sister, Kate - she can always get a smile out of you!



Addison, you will always be loved!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

In the past 8 weeks...

Our family of three became four We moved from our home to an apartment

Chris began a journey that in no way was I prepared for There has been lots of cuddling Many, many sleepless nights Looking rather scary here and no I do not advocate co-sleeping. I must say I was so exhausted one night I was standing straight up holding Addison and almost fell flat - Chris saw me. There is a point where sleep is a necessity and at that point I guess I did what I had to do - see above! Thankfully we are doing better now.

Complete happiness and joy!
Tears of frustration and doubt and tears of happiness
We celebrated a special someone's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DADDY!
In the past eight weeks God has brought me to my knees many times. This journey is by far the hardest I've ever traveled and in no way could I make it without Him. I have shed more tears in the past eight weeks than my entire adult life probably -feels that way anyhow. I have learned that your circumstances cannot determine your happiness and that God never promised easy. Life is finally looking brighter. Hormones are leveling out (I hope ) - : ) I'm adjusting to "single" parenting - Chris is totally involved when he is around, but life of a resident is hard - seems like you might be married to the hospital at times : ) I feel so blessed to have two beautiful, healthy girls. I can finally say I am genuinely happy, the adjustment has been made - well until the next meltdown anyway - ha! ha! just kidding!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Update

Thanks for all the encouragment and advice. I felt like I should give you all a quick update on our progress.

Addison seems to be feeling much better without dairy and today I decided I am going to need to cut out chocolate - oh, the chocolate, can I let it go???? YES, after several "large" spit-up episodes that could only be related to chocolate I will let it go!

Kate's "paci" broke while she was sucking on it and it no longer works for her. She has asked about it various times, but I just change the subject or remind her it broke - oh to be two again!

After I find the camera cords, etc. I'll be uploading pictures - can't wait to share with you my beautiful girls!

Saturday, August 8, 2009

A whole lot of random...

Here I sit with an almost 7 week old precious little girl on my lap sleeping while I catch up on some blog reading and email. Today I've been thinking and decided to do a post on a little bit of everything....


at 6:52 pm my entire house was in bed sleeping (minus me) until Addison woke up around 7:20 - the girl is not a good sleeper!!!

I never want to complain or come across as ungrateful for my children, so often I just don't mention the difficulties occuring with the kiddos, BUT.... Addison has been very colic-y and overall super fussy. Crying A LOT - basically when she is not sleeping. The doctor put her on medicine for acid reflux and that helped some, but she was still super duper unhappy - could not figure it out. FINALLY, last week I decided to quit dairy for a few days and see what happened (I had already cut back on dairy a ton, but I quit it all). She seemed better, but I love me some DAIRY, so I tested it by eating a milk shake - bad idea - the next morning she emptied her stomach - not a pretty site!! Hopefully this solves our problem - only time will tell. She seems to be doing much better, so maybe now we can work on sleeping in our own bed for more than 20-30 minutes!!

My 2 year old Kate never took a pacifier and only sucked her thumb until she was 4 months old, so tell me why is she sucking on a pacifier now?????? She found one of Addison's pacifier's - Addison hates them - and began playing with it, which turned into her sucking on it, which has now turned into her enjoying sucking on it, which is now going to turn into mommy taking it away - NO FUN : ) I told her it was going to be gone tomorrow.

I can finally upload pictures and let the world see us again - Chris hooked up the desktop while I was away! Pictures soon - lots to share!

Chris and I were both teary eyed (well I was crying and Chris was choking up) today as we talked to Kate about our old house - the space, the backyard with a playhouse, the walking trails, the playground, the.....

Chris is exhausted - he has mentioned more than once that if he knew what he knew now, he would not be going into this career. He loves it and knows this is what God has for him, but the time away from us is killing him - he HATES that part! The night shift has been truly difficult on all of us - I know it will get better!!!

We are learning to Love life in Little Rock. The people are friendly, the town is a great size, and the terrain is breathtakingly beautiful. This is where we will call home for at least the next three years. This journey has been much harder than we expected, but God has a super mega plan for the Robertson's! I get a gut ache everytime I think about the past, the friends, the comfortable house and all that went with it. God has moved us out of our comfort zone for a reason. Chris has already seen things that I feel certain he would not have if not in this program. He has had the opportunity to PRACTICE medicine - he truly loves the program and people. I have met some SAHM and feel certain will develop friendships. God has provided us with a church that seems to be a fit and will be great for our family.

I am reminded of how blessed I am. In my previous post I mentioned a friend from college and her little boy. Take the time to jump over and read the story about little Ridge - http://www.crazydaycary.blogspot.com/. God will bless you through Alisha's testimony and faith. Thank you Jesus for my beautiful little girls and their health!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Pray...

Just asking you to pray for little Ridge Cary, born in April. His mom and I went to college together and he has been hospitalized with internal bleeding and has been receiving blood transfusions. You can donate blood in his name if interested. For all the information on how to do that follow the family blog at www.crazydaycary.blogspot.com

Friday, July 31, 2009

Life of a SAHM

Greet your husband whether morning, noon or night with a scent of spit-up, possibly even remains of the last episode

No matter how organized, there are always dishes in the sink and laundry in the wash

Toys, toys, toys - need I say more

Feelings of guilt if you don't get out of the house and expose your child to the world, but feelings of guilt if you do

Praying for a daily shower - Ecstatic if you get one!

Investing time in the most precious gift available - your children!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Seriously

Okay guys, life is hectic, chaotic, and full of blessing. I'm trying to be easy on myself, but it is not in my character to feel so behind on things and not have it "all together" - I confess, I DO NOT!!

Yesterday went like this...

After a very restless night with Addison - she is not sleeping people - hard times. I woke up feeling exhausted and somewhat already defeated. Chris got home around 8 in the morning and I was determined to feed him breakfast and get him off to bed. Tears were shed - lots of tears were shed. Kate is doing as well as to be expected, but she's TWO! The television has become a part of our lives like it never was before - I HATE THAT!! SURVIVAL at times I guess - this is a season.

We had a lunch date with a friend of a friend from Tulsa at McDonald's - yeah, getting out of the house. I almost canceled due to exhaustion, but I decided to go. I looked up the address put it in the GPS and made it out the door - oh wait, it was the wrong one. I found myself in a part of Little Rock that isn't your nicest area. I frantically called Chris - no answer. I then tried to call Suzanne - a lady I have never met, but am meeting for lunch - no answer. Okay, Sara you can do this - just head home.

Suzanne quickly called me back and got me back on track - we officially made it to McDonald's - teary eyes and all. Ordered food and much to my surprise - no purse, no wallet - OOPS, cancel that order.

Suzanne arrives and we introduce ourselves and the girls (she has a 2 year old and 4 year old - perfect). Then I have to confess I have no means to pay for lunch.

So there you have it - I cried on the phone and accepted lunch from someone I had talked to on the phone twice. She laughed and completely understood and said she wanted to get together again and have us over for dinner as a family. We had great conversation and seemed similar to each other.

Isn't God a funny man - I really could have done without this excitement, but I guess He saw better.


PS: Still don't have pictures, etc. uploaded - one day maybe things will slow down and we'll be back to my organized self!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Success!

Today was my first official day to fly solo since Addison has been born and we made our big move to Little Rock. It went fabulously well. Chris left this morning around 7:15 and did not get home until 8:30 tonight, but I had both girls bathed and in bed by 8:07 - Kate was exhausted or she would have stayed up to see daddy. I call this success. I only cried once today - I was trying to walk the dogs with Kate not minding and Addison in the bjorn carrier - not fun at all. Hopefully this will get better.

We are still getting settled in and trying to get things re-organized. I have yet to upload pictures since the move/Addison's birth. I miss blogging and reading up on friends so much, but time just gets away from me and I find myself distracted by other things.

So.... here's to trying really hard to get things organized and back on routine. We are getting there!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Who are you?

Over the past three weeks our family has undergone major changes - new baby, moving away from friends and family, leaving our house of luxury for an apartment that has nasty carpet that leaves your feet black and has a lingering smell of dog urine (yes, we've cleaned it a million times).

Chris and I prayed about our life changes and this is where God has taken us - easy, no, but in His plan, YES! I am not one to be negative or give up. Even with a 5 day old making the journey to Arkansas, I stayed positive - not worried about the future, BUT.....

Over the past two weeks I feel as though I have given up - that is not who I am! I do not lay down and die.... I meet people, create community and get out of the house. I know that with a three week old, lots of things are difficult to do, but seeing a bright future is something!

I have been back in OK for almost a week now and the time away has been good. I've realized that home is Chris, Kate and Addison - no matter where we live. Home is not our old town and all that went with it - yes life would be easier and I would probably shed fewer tears, but my happiness is with my family. Everytime someone from "home" sends me a text, calls or emails, I get wattery eyed and start thinking back, but I know God will provide all that again, I just have to let him. I have missed Chris like crazy and cannot wait to get back to Arkansas to be with him - the few hours I will see him : )

I miss my SAA group and other medical spouses like crazy - there are some things only these individuals get. There are only two other males in Chris's intern class married - one is expecting a baby in August, the other I could have taught in school!! Both of their husbands have talked to Chris and said they are lonely and bored - so I am going to email them and start having get togethers - I can see clearly now that God has a plan and in a year from now I will look back to these rough few months and see how God was working in me!

WHO ARE YOU?

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Trying here...

So it has been two weeks and one day since Addison was born, one week and three days since we became an Arkansas family. I am um to say the least extremely busy and a bit overwhelmed. Thought I would stop by and say hi and that we're doing okay. The adjustment is more difficult than I thought it would be - apartment life just really doesn't fit our family. - Desiree I totally understand why you guys decided to buy a house!!! Kate is doing great with the new addition, just hard not having a backyard to play in.

My grandmother passed away yesterday, so we are heading back to OK for the funeral. She had been sick for a while and it was expected, so the news was not shocking. I hope to get back to a normal routine soon and get back to posting regularly!!! - I miss my bloggy world.

Hope all are doing well! I'll catch up on reading at some point and I'll get some pictures of my beauties posted as well - how blessed I am!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Addison Claire Robertson

Addison was born at 2:32 p.m. on June 22, 2009 (today). Sara and Addison are doing great. Chris (the blogger tonight) is doing good too (in case you were wondering). Addison weighs 7lbs. and 3oz. and she is 20 inches long.


Addison Claire Robertson and her daddy. This is a great father's day gift.


Addison is gorgeous! Kate is going to be a wonderful big sister. She is already very helpful. This of course is the family of four. Sara is such a great mom. Doesn't Sara look great? She just had a baby! More pictures and updates to come. So stay tuned.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Happy Father's Day!

Today was a wonderful day. Chris is such a great daddy and I am so glad Kate and soon Addison get to be his daughters. We skipped church this morning - my fall did a number on my back and I have been having lots of contractions and we hung out all day. I just love spending time with Chris and Kate and today marks the end of "just the 3 of us". I cannot wait for Addison to join us, but I know things will be different.This morning we got out finger paint - what fun, but what a mess. As you can see from the pictures it become body paint (encouraged by her amazing Daddy!). Kate had a blast and made a huge mess, but thankfully it cleaned up very easily. I wouldn't recommend this project if you are a super clean person manning the house by yourself!!

Kate took a nap this afternoon and while I was checking on her this is what I found - too cute to pass up a picture. I love my sweet little girl!
To end the evening we took Daddy to Red Robin for dinner and then to Braum's for a banana split. We had a wonderful day hanging out together.

We are all excited to meet Addison Claire tomorrow!